Like a child…

Going shopping and spending time with my mother this week has reminded me when I was a kid.

You see, when I went out with the “adults” then, they always said I was a very easy kid to handle. Long before the age of mobile phones, they could just leave me in a corner while they bought something or went to the toilet and I will not wander off somewhere else.

Truth is, I figured at a very young age that if I stayed put a certain location, my mother/cousin/auntie/uncle will find me eventually. So I would never be afraid of getting lost.

See, this incident of finding my mother at the mall gave me two epiphanies.

One, I missed spending quality time with my mum and should really start doing so before I do not have the chance to do so.

Two, this habit of mine has transcended into my adult life as I have the same way of staying put and waiting on girls that I like. Mindset being, if I don’t move, she will understand and find me eventually.

This is not working well.

You see, I met this girl quite sometime ago and it took me awhile to realise that I really liked her. It really takes me alot to like a girl.

I know when I spend weeks or even months thinking about her and hoping to see her. Even to the point when I’m bitter when I don’t get to see her and everyone else does.

But everything’s fine when I finally meet her and see the smile on her face. (Cliche I know)

Point is one year into enlistment and my life’s is at a stagnant point. As stagnant as when I wait for the adults while they’re away.

And I really need to find a way to un-stagnant-ise it. Especially with this girl.

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